my feeling, yeah,.. my feeling

It has been a long time not sharing my post to u. I’m so miss the moment like this, Typing in front of my laptop, listenning i-tunes and share about myself and my activities to u. Right now, i wanna tell about me and in my daily life I do a lot of other things that is not related to fashion. this is about my feeling. yeah, my feeling.

Anyway, there is something wrong with myself. You know guys, my heart like the sm*sh’s song, Cenat-cenut. Haha.. maybe it’s like a joke for u but this is a fact. I feel guilty to someone that close to me lately. Sorry, i cant tell who is he. But according to me, he is the good one for me (maybe, after i realized it). a few weeks ago, there is something bad happened between us. No..noo, not between us but maybe something wrong with him. It makes me feel guilty to him although my friend said that’s not my fault absolutely. But it’s about feeling and no one can be forced to feel it. Hmmm,.. but lately, i miss him, maybe more than he’ll ever know. He never send his news to me, cause maybe i’m not in his mind again. Ough,..how sad :( !!! I dont know about my feeling lately but i think i begin to like him (i dont know why -_- ). Missing when can spending time together, hanging out on Saturday night and sharing about everything that make us happy. I’m so miss that moment. I pray to God "when love is there, thanks God.. but when love is not there, please give me ur answer and please teach me to love someone not as my standard, not as my willing, not as my planning. Because, it's often became a boomerang for myself. Please teach me how to love someone according to You, God."